I read poetry of
Alice Wyndham. That made me quite strong to express my feelings in words. The
poetry says,
When time runs out and
your heart needs to say so much more
but the heart that should hear it is gone now forever
and you are left with a raw nagging sore.
Then reach for your paper, your pen and your candle
and write though your heart it would burst.
No fears now restrain you; no judgment; no mock;
Write of your best, of your worst.
When your soul is then drained of its deepest regret
then holds your true paper to the candle's clear flame
that thought-laden smoke might reach to that heart
and ashes, a symbol of love, yet remain.
but the heart that should hear it is gone now forever
and you are left with a raw nagging sore.
Then reach for your paper, your pen and your candle
and write though your heart it would burst.
No fears now restrain you; no judgment; no mock;
Write of your best, of your worst.
When your soul is then drained of its deepest regret
then holds your true paper to the candle's clear flame
that thought-laden smoke might reach to that heart
and ashes, a symbol of love, yet remain.
That’s why I think that this piece of
writing may help me to overcome this ache. It is about when I was in school and
I delighted to be the position holder in the class. And probably in that
proudness I badly hurt someone. From that time this pain of mind is not
allowing me to live a normal life. I find no way to get rid of this suffering.
Everything I see is wrapped in black. It May be because of my veil of
depression which I am wearing. I cannot see the reality of anything. I wish I
could change the worst happening of my life. I could rewind the life and manage
things as I wish it to be. I wander why that heartbreaking day came into my
life. Why because of my foolishness a person was hurt? I wish I could not be
the reason of someone’s wounds. Her tears shedding eyes inflamed my soul. And
still my soul is burning in that fire. I wish I did not tell anything to the
principal about our mathematics teacher. I wish I remained quiet. In that case
she was not fired from the job and she lingered with us. I pray to Allah for a
chance just to apologize for my mistake.
